Stress.. Finals.. Stress..

It all comes down to this, 4 tests, in 3 days, to either redeem my worst quater ever or to materialize my worst quater ever. I honestly have never felt this stressed about finals before, I have always done quite OK on finals but this time I am not so sure. I need to do well on 3 of my 4 finals just to have a decent performance in the class, and if I do screw up, I might end up with a VERY, VERY bad grade. If I do just average on all 4 finals, I might end up with a B average at best, which is much lower than my goal. And if I do bad on one and average on the rest, I might just end up with a quater that completely ruins my GPA.

The thing is, I have never faced a acadamic challenge quite like what I am facing right now in college, I haver always been above average going into the finals knowing that if I do average I will still end up in A-/B+ range.. and if I perform well, I might just carry home an A/A-. But this quarter, I am going into the final below average in 3 of my classes, so I can no longer just do average.

I feel focused, I made plans for myself which I hope I will go through, but the truth is, I really do not have that much time. 4 Finals in less than a week is too much, I may be more focused, pressured and motivated for this final than any other quarter before, but the reality is, I will not be more prepared. Time will only allow me to understand what I am supposed to understand, which is never enough to do really well on these tests, it is enough to do a little above average.. but on a bad day, it might actually end up a little below average.. something I cannot afford..

I cannot say shit like I will try my best for the next week, that is something you say at BEGINNING of the quarter, I do not believe I can simply CRAM longer than I normally do preparing for a final and expect a much higher result. The root of the problem lies in the method, not the execution.

No matter what, it's make or break time, I feel this might be the most crucial quater in my college years so far, yet I feel no control, not confident at all --- Feeling stressed.


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On a side note, in my last 5.5 hours of cash game at interpoker (I have only played 6 hours in over a week), I am up 800 dollars.. Yea, that's 140 dollars an HOUR.. Money is good.